Destroying Mis-Identifications, Finding True Identity, and Understanding Purpose: Part 1

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I woke up this morning with an overwhelming desire to write, to share something on my heart. I haven’t had that desire in awhile, and quite frankly, I haven’t had a lot of other desires besides eating and sleeping.

Growing a human will kind of do that to ya…

…oh yeah, I don’t think I officially announced that on my blog yet, have I?

Oh well, I will just blame that on pregnancy/mom brain! Trust me, it’s a VERY real thing!

Anyway back in April, before I got pregnant, I had a stirring within my spirit believing that the winds of change were blowing upon my circumstances and that God would be bringing restoration to many areas of my life and resurrecting joy within me. In fact, it seemed as if that season was already upon me, or at least I had hoped it was.

But somewhere between May and August, that hope seemed to fizzle and fade. Perhaps it was the unexpected struggles of mega morning sickness (that wasn’t just bound to morning, but morning, noon, and night and everywhere in between) that seemed to last FOOORRRRRRREEEEEEVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEERRRRR.

Yes, I’m pretty sure that has been my TKO (Total Knock Out- and now I am having flashbacks of playing Mortal Kombat on Playstation with my brother…hahaha) over these last few months. Since I didn’t really deal with the constant exhaustion, nausea, and vomiting with my last pregnancy, it was difficult to focus on much of anything else besides breathing, eating, and trying not to upchuck what I just ate. I was just praying that there would be an end in sight because I did not feel like myself whatsoever. Three months of feeling like junk definitely gave me a lot of more sympathy for those who suffer from chronic pain and illness. It’s definitely a challenge to hold onto your joy in the midst of issues in your body.

But thankfully the end has finally come; I have made it into the glorious second trimester and those miserable symptoms have faded! Hallelujah to the Lamb!

And although I have had my days here and there with the fun of raising a growing toddler (yay for potty-training and constipation!), I am beginning to gain more clarity and focus regarding what God has for me in this next season, especially the short time I have left before baby #2 comes and keeping another tiny human alive (and my sanity) becomes my central focus once again. 🙂

Ah, motherhood!

Okay, enough of the Emily-update and onto what I believe the Lord has put on my heart to share with you all today! Thanks to all of you who have stayed with me thus far! 😉

DISCOVERING PURPOSE

Since I have been sensing my season of rest coming to an end and hearing the Lord’s beckoning to come run with Him in ministry once again, I have been asking Him on and off these last few months for more clarity regarding my purpose and destiny. Now having finally grasped the fact that a huge part of my purpose on this earth has much to do with my role as a mom and raising my children in the admonition of the Lord, I also believe God has placed gifts within me that reach beyond just my very own family, although I completely understand that my family is my primary ministry, right after my marriage, of course.

Through dreams and times of prayer, God has been (slowly) unveiling more and more of my purpose to me.

One of the questions I have had though is “why does it feel like it has taken so long for me to have solid understanding of my purpose, Lord?”

I believe I got an answer to that this morning…

…I needed to understand my identity FIRST.

And like much of what God does in our hearts, understanding my identity has been a process- a process on the Great Potter’s wheel.

MIS-IDENTIFICATION

  • Before I could even fully understand my identity and who I am in Christ, I had to first acknowledge my mis-identification and ask the Lord to help me dismantle it. When I wrote about this process back in December 2016, I finally admitted that I wasn’t sure who I was apart from doing, accomplishing, productivity, or even using my gifts for Him:

Although I would have told you straight to your face that my identity is not in what I do, I don’t know if I whole-heartedly believed that.

And that is why I think the Lord has had to strip me down where I do none of those things, with absolutely no opportunities in sight to even attempt them, or having very little desire or passion left in me to attempt doing any of those things at all and not much grace to accomplish them.

Looking back, I realize God began talking to me about learning how to just be and detach my worth from all the doing shortly after giving birth to Isaiah. I wrestled with God for many, many months, asking Him why I felt so stuck. It took me two years to finally yield to the hands of the Potter and give him every label and title I have ever held onto and see Him smash them to smithereens with is mallet, y’all. That’s a long time to wrestle with God, but thankfully, as He always does, He won that match!

FORMLESSNESS

  • Once God stripped me of all of those wrong labels that I was trying to identify myself with by completely removing me from activities, ministry positions, and even removing certain desires and passions, I entered a time of formlessness.

This is usually the time on the Potter’s wheel where your world is spinning and nothing is familiar, not even yourself, because His hands are forming a masterpiece that only the Creator could create.

Who am I? becomes a question you ask a lot. God was teaching me to be still and know that He is God, even though I had no idea what He was doing. Telling a do-er to be still and rest was one of the hardest lessons I have ever tried to receive and live out.

 Suddenly doors that were open, were now shut to me. I lost interest and passion in things that used to bring me such enjoyment (I know now that this was only for but a season as God worked on my heart). Leadership roles and responsibilities were now gone, and because of issues with Isaiah’s sleeping for many, many months, I could no longer write because of the lack of mental clarity and focus.

“Mombie,” anyone?

Even in the midst of motherhood, it felt like I was doing a whole lot of nothing.

There were times that I felt like I had lost myself.

But through the process of losing myself, just like Jesus tells us, I found myself all over again.

He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it (Matthew 10:39, NKJV).

In the moment of formlessness, I had to learn how to take my eyes off of the life that was familiar and the life I used to identifying with, and fix my gaze upon the Potter and see His hands gently, yet firmly and securely holding me, believing that He was molding me more and more into the likeness of His Son, and I would find the life I was meant to live, all for His glory. No matter what, even if I didn’t fully understand everything that was going on, I had to trust God and trust that the process was for my good. God had good in store for me.


In my next blog, I will discuss the next steps that the Potter took as I discovered what it truly means to be IN CHRIST, how that helped me learn to simply be God’s daughter, and how that revelation is leading me into further understanding my purpose.

Until next time, friends. 🙂

Guest Post- 5 Bible Verses When You Feel Stressed

A few weeks ago, Marcus from Psysci.co, reached out to me and asked if he would be able to share some encouragement on emilyrosemassey.com for my readers, especially regarding his expertise in psychology. He decided to write a blog about 5 Bible verses when you are feeling stressed out. Please welcome Marcus!

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Whether you consider yourself to be religious or not, Bible verses hold basic humanistic truths that apply to various situations. The following Bible verses are especially comforting in times of stress and remind us that being anxious and worrying about things will do nothing to put you in a better state mentally, physically or spiritually.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” [Philippians 4:6-7, ESV]

This verse is a constant reminder that the peace of God is freely accessible to everyone and can be so easily obtained through a simple prayer devoting your worries to God. To let your requests be made known to God through thanksgiving is a way to humble yourself and realize that God is bigger than any stressful situation that you might be going through. Keeping a gratitude journal is also a great exercise to help you reflect on the things in your life for which you are thankful.  

“Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved.” [Psalm 55:22, ESV]

By casting your burden on the Lord, you are transferring anxiety, stress and worry from the shoulders of a mere mortal to the hand of God that can hold an infinite amount of burdens without beckoning under the weight.

“When the righteous cry for help, the LORD hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The LORD is near to the broken-hearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the LORD delivers him out of them all.” [Psalm 34:17-19, ESV]

The righteous are afflicted – this notion is not uncommon to the world in which we live. In fact, it forms the basis of every good versus evil battle that is represented in the movies we watch, the books we read, the conversations we have and even the relationships we form with those around us. Heartbreak, affliction, sadness, hurt and other stress-inducing emotions are impartial in the sense that everyone will experience these at some point throughout their lives. This Bible verse offers a glimmer of hope and the promise of the ultimate hero to save us when we are in distress, all through God’s great grace and mercy.

“Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” [Isaiah 40:30-31, ESV]

Often, a state of distress and worry will urge an unhealthy desire to intervene in situations out of our own strength with disastrous results.  Patience is a virtue for a reason and by devoting time to praying and hearing God’s voice and His desire for you to be peaceful and achieve success in whatever you do, you are sure to be renewed in spirit. God’s divine intervention is on His perfect timing, not yours – distract yourself from stress by doing exercise, meditating or doing something that you enjoy and trust that God will bring you a new sense of calm.

“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” [Matthew 6:34, ESV]

This last Bible verse speaks directly to the crux of stressful situations. There will always be something to worry about but by worrying, you are not adding a single moment to your life – in fact, you’re doing the opposite! The articles found here, here and here detail the effects of stress and worry on both your physical and mental states of health. Focus on one thing at a time to avoid reaching a point of breakdown and take time in your day to address the problems that continually cause stress and anxiety. Be confident in your ability to overcome and remind yourself of these inspiring Bible verses whenever you are stressed.


About the Author: Marcus has a degree in psychology, a master’s degree in health psychology and has worked within the NHS as well as private organisations. Marcus started psysci a psychology and science blog in order to disseminate research into bitesize, meaningful and helpful resources.

A Wrinkle in Time: The Age Old Story of Good vs. Evil

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Did you happen to read Madeleine L’Engle’s “A Wrinkle in Time” in grade-school? I don’t remember too many details of the book, but I do remember it impacting my little heart now decades ago.

And if you haven’t heard the news yet, Disney’s movie adaptation will be released in Spring 2018 and the teaser trailer has already been creating a buzz online. The stellar cast (Oprah Winfrey, Reese Witherspoon, and Mindy Kaling to name a few), awe-inspring special effects, and vividly colorful costumes and make-up definitely drew me into the promo clip and got me excited for the release of the retelling of this children’s classic.

Although the book is not considered a Christian piece, L’Engle, who actually used to teach Sunday school at her church and wrote a devotional on grace later on in her life, wove Christian truths throughout the book. There are actually many scriptures quoted throughout the novel as well as mention of Jesus being a “great warrior of light.” Ultimately, this book is about the powerful force of good over evil and love triumphing in the end, a message believers proclaim and live by.

“What if we are here for a reason? What if we are apart of something truly divine?” 

A Wrinkle In Time opens in US theatres March 9, 2018.

Catch the teaser trailer below:

Guest Post- The Connection Between Insomnia And Depression

Sarah from sleepydeep.com reached out to me a few weeks ago asking if she would be able to submit a guest blog post for emilyrosemassey.com regarding sleeping problems and depression. Since I have experiences with these issues and have shared a lot on my blog how insomnia and depression has affected my life, I was extremely excited to have Sarah share! Please welcome Sarah!


The Connection Between Insomnia And Depression

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We all have had sleepless nights. We’ve all had dips in our emotional state. Insomnia and depression are different from your run of the mill all-nighter or post break up blues. They are actual psychological disorders. You may have heard that a symptom of depression is sleeping a lot, and you heard that correctly. But did you realize that there is actually a correlation between insomnia and depression?

Insomnia

Insomnia is a serious sleep disorder that negatively affects your life. WebMD defines insomnia as: “a sleep disorder that is characterized by difficulty falling and/or staying asleep.” A study performed by the University of North Texas on the Epidemiology of insomnia, depression, and anxiety found that people with insomnia are 10x more likely to develop depression.

When you have insomnia, you might feel tired but are unable to settle down and go to sleep. Trying to sleep when you want to, but can’t, can be mind-numbingly frustrating. I personally believe it’s best to just get out of bed and do something else. You aren’t doing yourself any favors by lying in bed in the dark anyway. You might as well get up and drink some tea or read an uplifting book. Try to do a relaxing activity to get your mind off how badly you need to rest before you have to get up early the next morning.

The Vicious Cycle of Insomnia and Depression

Insomnia and depression can become a vicious cycle that is hard to break out of; each causing the effects of the other to worsen. To say that a lack of sleep can have negative effects on your mood is barely scratching the surface. Not to mention that when you have a mood disorder such as depression, this in turn, can have a negative effects on your natural sleeping rhythm.

Feeling down for a prolonged period of time can have detrimental effects on all of your daily activities. An unfortunate symptom of depression causes us to have racing negative thoughts. These are bombarding us constantly at night while we’re trying to lay down and fall asleep. Even though we’re exhausted this can severely inhibit our sleeping patterns.

Racing Thoughts Make For An Uncomfortable Bed

I know that when I went through a bout of depression a few years ago, I began to procrastinate going to bed at night. I dreaded the thought of being trapped alone with these racing thoughts in the dark quiet of my room. I would distract myself with television or play games and surf the web on my tablet before bed. The blue light emitted from these devices causes your brain to halt the process of producing melatonin, the hormone that tells your mind and body it is time to sleep.

Poor Sleep = Poor Performance

Insomnia may cause you to sleep late and miss out on the morning time; which can be a great time of day to sit in quiet meditation or a quick morning workout to get your endorphins pumping. It’s hard to feel good about yourself if you don’t get out of bed until 12 noon every day. If you are waking up too late and missing work or your appointments, this can add to the list of frustrations and grievances you have with yourself, contributing to this self-sabotaging cycle of insomnia and depression.

REM Sleep Promotes Optimal Mental Health

At night, we go through different stages of sleep, it has become common knowledge that when we dream, we are in our deepest stage of REM sleep (rapid eye movement). Anecdotally, it is believed that dreaming can help our subconscious mind deal with our daily reality, helping us to sort through some of our depression without us having to do anything at all, but simply go to sleep.

In a research study on Depression and sleep: pathophysiology and treatment, doctors found that REM sleep helps to increase your brain’s functional release of serotonin and other “feel-good” hormones. Anti-depressants are thought to work by inhibiting your brain’s serotonin reuptake receptors. So, if you can regulate your serotonin levels by getting quality deep sleep, then all the better, right?

This Too, Shall Pass

Although both depression and insomnia are serious disorders of the mind, it is helpful to note that it won’t last forever. However you choose to deal with your depression, make sure you have someone to talk to. Even if it’s just a supportive internet forum, sharing your thoughts and feelings in a safe environment makes a huge difference. If this advice seems cliché that is because clichés, like sarcasm, have a ring of truth to them.

Disclaimer –  I am not saying that if you cure your insomnia, your symptoms of depression will automatically be cured. Please make sure you always talk with your physician and therapist about new decisions, and never stop taking your medication without speaking to your doctor first.

Have you ever battled with depression or insomnia? Did you ever correlate the two together or did you, like me, believe these were separate entities? Do you think that this information will help you to manage your emotional state going forward, making high quality rest a priority?


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You Can’t Text God: How Social Media is Affecting My Prayer Life

I have debated on deactivating my Facebook account many times over the years, and sometimes I was brave enough to take the plunge, yet it always seems to suck me back into it’s time-wasting vortex. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

I have started to ask myself why this is.

With the invention of smart phones and these (often anti) social media apps , we now can be distracted and ignore the reality in front of our faces at any given moment of every single day.

Many have lost the art of communication because there really is no need to actually TALK (aloud) to people anymore.

It’s all about these black letters on white background.

We text instead of call. We use emojis instead of an emotional face-to-face conversation. We post “insta” updates like engagements or the birth of a new baby instead of waiting to share that news in person, especially to close friends and family members. I hate finding out important things through Facebook first, don’t you?

We can’t even sit in a 20 minutes car ride without grabbing for that block of distraction. My husband knows how guilty I am of this one!

Y’all, I have been hiding behind my social media platforms ignoring that there is a deeper rooted issue going on.

I’ve been lonely.

Social media somehow makes me feel like I’m connected to people, but why I am still left feeling lonely?

It’s because I’m longing for a deeper connection. Instead of sharing an article or funny meme, I want to share actual life experiences with others.

And recently I discovered that existing behind my keyboard and phone hasn’t just affected my relationships with people, but with God.

My prayer life has been so silent and not because I have taken the time to be still and listen.

I just have stopped talking to God in general.

Wow. Writing that out just seems to make me sound like such a horrible Christian.

But it’s true.

I have to wonder if living a communicative existence of only black letters on white background is the huge reason my prayer life is on life support.

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You have to talk out loud sometimes. Just like my husband and I’s relationship is affected by verbal communication, I’m forming my relationship with the Lord with every conversation I have with Him.

I can’t say that I’m strong enough to cut social media and time on my cell phone cold turkey, but I know this has been a major stumbling block for me and I don’t like that it has.

The first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem.

Well, I can say I’m finally being honest about that fact.

And now I need to manage my time more wisely and limit my exposure to this social media thing. That looks different for everyone, but for me it is deleting the apps from my phone and signing out of my web browsers, which I finally cut the ties this week. Deactivating my profile hasn’t proved much help for me since you use Facebook to sign on to other sites and I hate remembering passwords for every single website.

I have also found it helpful to leave my phone on the charger in my bedroom during the day so it’s not constantly with me in every room I’m in. I also put it on airplane mode at night so I’m not tempted to look at notifications, even emails.

So here’s to mending my prayer life as I work on this anti-social media experiment once again (I tried it back in Summer 2015 and failed). I’m hoping for a stronger connection up above.

I hear ya, God, I hear ya.

Red Nose Day: An Opportunity to Lend to the Lord

One who is gracious to a poor man lends to the Lord,
And He will repay him for his [l]good deed (Proverbs 19:17, NASB).

Like I talked about in my last post, Red Nose Day is quickly approaching! This campaign is such a great opportunity as believers to support a cause that is so near to the Lord’s heart, as we find in Proverbs 19, being gracious and lending a hand to the poor and needy, not for our name’s sake but for His.

The organization behind Red Nose Day is Comic Relief Inc. Although Comic Relief is not a faith-based organization, plenty of faith-based and Christian organizations are partnering with them, longing to do their part to see child poverty erased. Comic Relief’s strategy to make this goal a reality is to provide grants to organizations that keep children healthy, safe and educated in the USA and around the world such as Save the Children, Boys & Girls Club, and Children’s Health Fund.

I had the privilege of chatting with Comic Relief’s Vice President of Grants and Philanthropy in the United States, Rick Scott, last week. I was able to hear a little more about his journey with the organization, which started in the UK over 20 years ago, and his mission to see Red Nose Day expand in the US.

Since Red Nose Day launched in the US in 2015, they have seen growth in the involvement and awareness by at least 60%.  In Comic Relief Inc.’s first two years in the United States, they have raised over $60 million. Globally, Red Nose Day has raised over $1 billion since its launch in the UK in 1988! I love seeing that kind of money put to a great cause such as helping children!

Between the funds of the red noses that you can purchase at Walgreens or Duane Reade and the donations and grants of organizations, Comic Relief is seeing more and more people, both regular Joe’s and major influential people such as Bill Gates, join the cause behind Red Nose Day.

One of the reasons I believe Comic Relief’s clever idea behind Red Nose Day is catching momentum around the world is the mere fact that comedy is a universal language. Everyone smiles and laughs, no matter what age you are, what part of the world you are from, or how much money you have in your pocket.

“When you put on a red nose, you get a reaction (a laugh) and people want to know more,” Scott said.

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You put on this red nose, the walls come down, and we can now start a conversation about the heartbeat behind “the nose,” helping children trapped in poverty.

And since we are all created in the image of God, I don’t think many can escape the great tug on your heart when you see someone in need, especially a child.

So will you join me in bringing awareness- whether that is promoting this great organization so that those who are able to give, find the perfect place for their money, or if you don’t have thousands of  dollars at your disposal that you are able to donate, consider at least buying a red nose at your local Walgreens or Duaine Reade?

Consider it a loan to the Lord. It will not go unnoticed to Him.

And most importantly, don’t forget to tune in on Thursday May 25 at 8/7c for a night of Red Nose Day — only on NBC.

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Why I Love My Red Nose

You may see me wearing a red nose in the next few days.  I’m wearing it proudly to support a cause called Red Nose Day which is on Thursday, May 25.

Red Nose Day is about ending child poverty here in the U.S. and around the world, “one nose at a time.”

My family and I have been tremendously blessed.  A day doesn’t go by when I’m not thankful for all we have, but we also pray and do our best for those in need, especially children.  

We’ve learned that:

  • 1 out of 5 children in the U.S. live in poverty.
  • Every Year, More Than 2 Million Kids in America Will Face a Period of Homelessness.
  • 57% of homeless kids spend at least one day every month without food.

These are heartbreaking numbers!  Homeless children and youth in our streets are also in constant danger of human traffickers – something I know so many of our churches and organizations fight against.  

Hopefully, you too can join me for Red Nose Day!  There are so many easy ways you too can be a part of this including:

  • Wear your own Red Nose and post on your social channels to raise awareness.  Red Noses are available at all Walgreens locations.  Don’t forget to hashtag #rednoseday
  • Watch A Special Night of TV:  On May 25, NBC will be celebrating Red Nose Day with a three-hour primetime program block that will both entertain viewers and give them an opportunity to make a difference in the lives of kids in need.
  • Visit the Red Nose Day website:  https://rednoseday.org/ for additional fun ideas and info.

Some of the charities that will benefit include:  Save The Children, Feeding American, Boys and Girls Club and these two Christian-based charities – Covenant House and charity: water.  All of these organizations work tireless to make a difference here at home in the U.S. and around the world.

Whenever, I pray with gratitude, I also think of this passage below:

In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive (Acts 20:35).

I believe that we can all raise awareness, support Red Nose Day, and end child poverty – one nose at a time.

Check out the video below of Ed Sheeran helping raise awareness of Red Nose Day:

From Brokenness to Restoration

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being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ (Philippians 1:6 NKJV).

The work God has done in my heart can definitely be described as one big (de)construction project- from tearing down walls that were erected from what I experienced as a child to restoring the brokenness created by my six year prodigal journey running away from the Father.

And as long as I am breathing in oxygen on this fallen planet, this heart of mine is a total work in progress.

In the process, the Lord has built patience in me- that in and of itself is a total miracle for this sometimes stubborn and driven personality of mine.

I believe God can change us in an instant, but chooses the longer, sometimes grueling and painful road, because it requires us to trust Him in the waiting and allows our history with Him to deepen in such a beautiful way.

I have talked quite a bit about “seasons of soul” on my blog because it amazes me to see how the Lord proves Himself faithful in the valleys and the mountain-top experiences of life. Instead of focusing on the crashing waves that may try to overwhelm us, when we choose to fix our eyes on Jesus, we trust that He won’t allow us to sink and won’t leave us alone in our storm. The same is true when everything is butterflies and rainbows. He’s still the same Jesus standing by our side: rejoicing with us, mourning with us, and cheering us on as we run the race that is set before us (Hebrews 12:1).

Shortly after I gave birth to my son in the Fall of 2014, it seemed as if the Lord was whispering to my heart that I would be entering a “season of restoration.” This was a glorious promise because there had been numerous occurrences in my life where the enemy had stolen more than enough from me and my family. In the midst of this promise of restoration, I had no idea that I would experience one of the darkest “night of the soul” seasons in my entire life that would last for well over two years.

I experienced both natural depression and spiritual depression at the same time and because I was isolated as a new stay-at-home mom, it felt even darker for me. I can tell you that I held onto that promise of restoration with each passing day, but some days were just plain hard to keep hanging on, if I can be honest. I’m thankful to Jesus for standing by my side, as well as my husband Paul, who was so faithful through it all. There also have been friends who have been such a breath of fresh air of God’s grace to me, sharing words of encouragement and love that helped me face the day and keep putting one foot in front of the other. Their prayers were so evident in my life!

And here I am today, knowing that my dark night of the soul season has lifted. Knowing that God has been bringing my brokenness to full restoration and I’m living in that promise now!

The joy I am experiencing is overwhelming! The peace I continue to rest in surpasses anything the world can offer.

I share this with you to let you know God sees you. He knows the pain is very real. And He’s with you in the midst of your storm. Your trial has a shelf-life….even if it may be years, and even if you don’t experience relief until you see Jesus face to face, as hard as it is to say that. The Lord is forever faithful and will never leave you. Hold onto hope! Hold onto your faith in the Father! He is working behind the scenes and is faithful to complete this work that He has started in you, just like the Word promises us.

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Finding Me

I spent hours upon hours marketing, networking, and promoting my book from 2014-2015. I was blessed with many opportunities to be able to share my story of deliverance and divine transformation through public speaking engagements and radio and TV interviews. But somewhere along that whole time glorifying God, I got lost in the midst of all of the (self) promotion process that comes with being an author/writer.

In 2016, all of the book promotion seemed to come to a sudden stop, and my focus had to shift to taking care of my family, as we went through some challenging situations raising Isaiah and dealing with financial pressures of being a one-income family. At the beginning of 2016, the Lord told me I was entering a season of rest. I had no idea what that meant because I didn’t know how to rest. I have been a do-er by nature my entire existence. I have always thrived on productivity and accomplishment. Looking back at the process God has been taking me through since becoming a stay-at-home mom two and half years ago, I realize now that I was trying to find my worth and value in what I did and not who I was- or more importantly, WHOSE I was. Even through my ministry involvements, I wrestled with this, but now I can say that I have truly learned what it means to just BE God’s daughter.

Over the last year, God seemed to strip me of a lot of things that I found my identity in, ministry included. I just knew that I was going to be set on the Potter’s wheel once again, but I forgot how painful that process can be. Suddenly doors that were open, were now shut to me. I lost interest and passion in things that used to bring me such enjoyment (I know now that this was only for but a season as God worked on my heart). Leadership roles and responsibilities were now gone, and because of issues with Isaiah’s sleeping for many, many months, I could no longer write because of the lack of mental clarity and focus.

“Mombie,” anyone?

Even in the midst of motherhood, it felt like I was doing a whole lot of nothing. But through the process of losing myself, just like Jesus tells us, I found myself all over again.

He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it (Matthew 10:39, NKJV).

I have truly been discovering who I am IN CHRIST. It is definitely a learning process, as I have been unlearning so much over these last two years and allowing the Father to mold me even more into the likeness of Jesus.

With all of that being said, something has shifted in me and a new season is upon me. You will start to see and hear more from me on social media, especially regarding my passion to share the gospel and God’s truth through my writing ministry. I’m believing for more opportunities to testify for Jesus and share my story with those who are struggling in their faith and those who still need to hear the good news of God’s glorious grace. From struggling with anxiety and depression to healing from sexual brokenness, to learning how to be yielded unto the Lord so that He can use you, to finding the importance in your identity as a child of God over all other positions in life- yes, indeed, we have a Good, Good Father!

In 2015, I received an email stating that my story was selected to be on a segment of a popular Christian TV program. They were waiting to find out if a TV crew would be in my area to film and then I never heard back and never followed up on it (this had to be God because my persistent self would have never forgot about it). But this morning, the Lord told me to reach out to some ministries who were interested in my story, one being this Christian TV ministry. I immediately received a response today letting me know that they are contacting a producer and will get back to me as soon as possible! More details to come, friends!

I’m hopeful. I’m excited. And I’m ready to be a vessel for God’s glory! 2017- my joyous, victorious, resurrection year!

Thankful for you all!

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Here Comes the Sun

I have decided to say “No!” to depression. Not to sound too…well, depressing, but since December, I have felt its noose slowly begin to tighten around my neck, and I was passively allowing it.

I believe it was a combination of the effects of stress and bad eating choices, winter blues, extended sleep deprivation, and just lies bombarding me from the enemy. I was also in the midst of working Christmas retail chaos for the first time in my life, so I guess you could say I was a tad overwhelmed and a little disappointed with the lack of creative outlet in my life.

But the clouds are parting and I’m beginning to experience the sun again!

I have felt in my spirit for quite some time that I am approaching transition into new territory. Like I wrote in my last post, I have been holding onto that hope with all of my might. I have been in survival mode for far too long, and I am ready for my life to thrive again. And not just for me but for the sake of those God has entrusted to me and who He is now sending my way.

The Bible verse that has been on my heart lately comes from Isaiah 60:1:

Arise, shine;
For your light has come!
And the glory of the Lord is risen upon you (NKJV).

This verse is displayed in my son’s room because it is one of my favorites found in the book of Isaiah.

What it says to me is that there is an action required for me to see the glory of the Lord rise upon me and that is I MUST ARISE! I can’t just sit there passively and let the devil continue to beat me up with his stinkin’ lies! I must rise up! I must stand up and most importantly, stand upon God’s truth and promises!

*Edit 4/4/2017- Shortly after I wrote the words above, a decision was unexpectedly made for me regarding my current evening schedule. God pretty much closed a door for me in an area of my life that was causing strife, stress, and strain in my marriage. Ha! How about that alliteration for ya?!

What seemed like something the Lord had asked me to do for quite some time, turned out to be a very short season for me in the end. Eight months later (8 symbolizes “new beginnings” in the Bible), I’m finding myself facing another “new beginning” in my life. Suddenly all this unnecessary weight I was carrying has been lifted off of my shoulders, and even though I could sense God’s grace carrying me through this last season, I still feel lighter in some way.

And now that my physical circumstances have rearranged to help alleviate stress and tension, I know that I still must hold onto hope and stand upon God’s truth because the enemy isn’t going to stop his dumb tactics to steal my peace and joy. This new change will require trusting God in a greater way regarding our physical needs because it has taken some of the control out of our hands and we have no choice but to trust that God will provide no matter what.

I just love how God cares about all aspects of our life instead of just our spiritual health. He will move on our behalf so that we can experience the life Jesus died for us to have. The more we look to Him to fulfill and satisfy, the more we discover how great a Father He is to us. He never disappoints!

Even if you can’t see it, He is working behind the scenes always. Even if you don’t feel the sunshine just yet, know that the clouds are going to part. Hold on! Stand up! Trust and believe!